I had almost a year of thinking and doing mostly nothing that it made me realize several things, to which I'd like to dedicate some time of thinking (or mulling... hope not) over.
Probably the most stressful "default" things ingrained to my brain is that self-defeating, pessimistic attitude. It's really hard to crawl out of - but I've decided some time ago that it doesn't deserve its place in my head. It's a pretty bad program to begin with, and while it keeps the insides ready for the worst, it doesn't bring out the best in me either.
There's been a lot of changes in my life since the last time I wrote here. Everything deserves an update. Even this so-so life, can use an upgrade.
Sure, my shots still suck, albeit having some of the best glass and gear of my camera maker. I go blank in the middle of shoots, I tire easily. I don't really make concepts, I'm really out of tune with creativity.
But in the middle of this black hole lies a well of hope, and that's where I'm going to start.
Maybe the key thought is, if I start from the bottom, there's nowhere to go but up.
